My story about being targeted and I need an open mind

I started channelling Angels over ten years ago. It was all nice and loving at first. They told me that my heart and soul is to remain together as one. We started getting rid of fear and stuff like that. It was fun, safe and I was mentally ok to be open minded. Then I got a message one year saying that I was a target for a secret cell and a dream telling me that I had to believe I was one of the tomorrow people if I was to survive. I had reached a really high mental level and I had seemingly merged with my other half. IT was him or something was there telling (I'm doubting a lot and I kept myself to myself until now. So please don't judge I just need someone to acknowledge that I'm not going mad.

I ignored the warning and thought I'm deep in love with my guy and if I'm in love nothing can get to me. So, after a few years nothing happened except I got really depressed and I returned home. My family are naysayers, don't believe in supernatural stuff and Angels and I was mocked all of a sudden and told that I wasn't hearing the angels etc and that nothing was there. They were very critical of me in general and tried to order me about to do work around the house. They would just dump kids on me and mock my healing abilities. After 8 years of people accepting me for my gifts and channelling working with angels etc.

Then that's when it struck. I can only say the depression gives the dark lights CIA , aliens etc the chance to get into you. I began to trust too much and I think one pretended to be Angels and I let them in like an idiot and that's when I was attacked. I'm unsure but I'm being honest. They tried to take my soul and they wiped my mind clean a pure attack. I was so gutted. I was horrified and petrified.

I told no one what had happened eccept a voice told me to accept I had a heart attack. I could not function in the head all I was hearing was demon type stuff. I saw one vision and that was ARchangel Michael fighting this demon off me but it felt like I was falling with the demon like a fall. I was petrified. People was saying that Archangel Michael was protecting me but it didn't feel this way to me. I was and still am stunned and they keep telling me I'm fear.

I got better bit by bit. I lost all my friends or rather so called friends. I saw a demon attached to them one of them with my bare eyes. I was always told you see that I was a light and that the heart and soul has to be as one as an angel. I was deep and still am deep in love with this twin. But I was side tracked with the demon and fears that they had grabbed my soul. I am so numb. I wrote all this and I felt the fear that this demon has and it's evil. Most horrid thing ever.

However, this took a turn again and so im still in shock. I pulled away out of fear it's a natural response sometimes. I rejected my self soon after and they tried to do the DID on me. The taking your personality from you.

I am so strong im shocked at how they took me down and to me so easily.

The friends I had were apparently quarters of my soul so the angels tell me. They told us that we had to stick together. This demon had my mind and whatever I typed it would change it to really horrific stuff. I tried to tell my friend but she would nt believe me and so shame on her. I begged her to pick up the phone as I could talk from the heart and she all of a sudden ignored me like she was nt interested. After ten years of a loving friendship y'd think that this person would trust me enough but no so because they both gave me the silent treatment and shut the door in my face. After all I put them together and I accepted them when they too were rejected.

Anyways, so I know this is totally spiritual I get this and that is why I'm speaking out because there are so many people who don't know who they are channelling they tried to make me forget/

What they did to me is assault me. I have no memory like it's wiped clean and something is blocking me from visualising.

How I knew it was Ultra or someone elite.

We got told to write a book to aid creating our twins. We did this and I figured that the channelling was very similar to ultra because my so called friend mentioned above wrote in that I was kidnapped by a demon and yet it wasn't and I figured from channelling that we trusted too much.

After all this happened to me, I had a CIA hologram pop up on my wall with a general on it saying the following

I was also warned that I the government is on to you because we have told you the truth that love is real and that they want to stop people being in love because of fear and power.

"you are to stop loving for your own benefit and stop healing the planet and others right away" and then it disappeared.

That did shock me and put me in some fear but as my mind was wiped already and kept hearing oh they said that they had cut most of my ego away and that's why I could hear spirits so easily and they told me that I could talk to spirits and telepathy up to ten miles away. So at first it was strange and you could hear snips. I was told and this was apparently angels.

So for a whole year and I have no memory I rejected my self from my body and I was really ill and petrified. I had no one to turn too.

They monitor me and that was like say I was visualising mother earth being healed a loud voice in my head would tell me to stop doing it.

Now I'd sit in a café shop and I would hear voices going "she's thinking" then

other times they play games with me and one voice tells me that "I'm in the head" when I thinking and that's how they get the soul. I was told by Angels that I had to be out of my head and be in the heart.

They also told me that If I thought of my twin another voice would say "stop thinking of him"

Then other voices beam in to my head going "you are fear" non stop when I was already down. That scared me the most.

Spirits would visit and then they tell me stuff and I'd realise that they were from the elite.

I told them to eff off at one point. I could feel them telling me stuff about Roselvet and the white house and yet I'm in Uk not the states.

They break you down until they tell you to denounce God and I've done my absolute best to stay in love. But they have affected me and I told know what to believe now.

They are scared of me though when I feel their fear they try to make it like it's coming from me. Or that the dark thoughts are my own when they are not. They are trying to distract me from being angelic but I can't remember and all I heard once that the antichrist was in a fight.

May be that was somehow what I saw and they took me with it.

Was it all an illusion or they are now trying to tell me that through my fear. no clearly not my fear well not all of it.

I'm in shock. I am in love with my twin and they are making out all I hear are accusations and I ver heard stuff blaspheming against mother mary.

The other night I heard you are humanoid to the point I just shouted at every voice going to just go away. I don't know if I cross fired at Jesus or some angels but I swore and now they are making it out that I'm in trouble with them and that it's my own accord that I am just me aka you are commiting folly because you don't believe in your twin. But they are distracting me and I'm lashing out because im isolated and alone. BREATHE!!!!

I'm angry that they are getting me on the dark in the ego. I've never been the same.

PLEASE I'm pleading that you keep an open mind.

They are real because they told me, they are weakened me and at one point I heard them say She won't let me in. Now. I know this is spiritual but they are getting at my ego and brain to accept the dark lights aka to you SATAN. I keep saying no but originally the Angels would come in and take fear and worry away and replace it with love. Unless they are not angels to begin with. This is where I am lacking faith and they are playing on this.

I go out shopping or to the café etc and they have queues of people either behind me or before me all the time. I don't have no trust except they are now trying to get me to kill myself and I won't go to a doctor because I know who is trying to do it. They don't give you time to think.

They try to make me believe I'm a "little devil"

and I heard "it's an experiment"

I need people to validate the list goes on but now they are trying to tell me that "out of my fear" that I'm just me and it's like they are fighting over me but I'm not use to love and they are doing it on purpose they know my history of my family being emotionally absent.

I hope this all makes sense. So now if an Angel comes to me I ask for love and I know they are innocent.

I swear to you I'm a graduate and this is not me being mad. Some one talk to me please.

I was told in my soul I couldn't fight them I am so strong. I am so strong. I just need to reach out becfause I 'm alone at home.